Th3 Unknown

 

 

People would always tell me you're a light, you're the life of the party, the funny one, the one with the best advice, with the biggest smile and the loudest laugh. But for the last three years I have fallen in and out of darkness. I was good again for a little, but the parts of me I hadn't healed came tumbling down. It's like there is someone else occupying my body and I don't know how to get rid of their existence without them taking me too. I do not want to die. Sometimes I just sit in the shower trying to figure out what is wrong with me and why I'm never good enough. Why, no matter how hard I try I always feel like I'm drowning. It's a terrifying world to let people in, not knowing if they are there to hurt you or help you. So instead, I fight my battles on my own. In the darkness that constantly surrounds me.  Similar to so many others. We are on our own. 

Edited ISO 3200, 18mm, f/3.5, 1/30 sec For Album Cover Original Song - Alone  By NF https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KB5yDzc5a98 This song is about feeling lost and being alone.  I chose to take a picture of the corner of my room with lights hanging above it. To me a dark room based in the corner is the feeling of being alone and depressed. With the lights hanging closer to the pictures right in the corner, it gives it that sense of where you feel trapped and backed into a corner. When NF says "I'm a little bit numb, little bit frozen, walking amongst you, but nobody knows it, nobody knows me, I'm lost and I'm caught in a cold dream" it feels cold and dark. Like you want to be understood but you can't.

                                                             Edited      ISO 1250, 30 mm, f/4.2, 1/60 sec Original  Edited       ISO 280, 55mm, f/5.6, 1/250 sec Original